EMMA
PART 8
CHAPTER IV
Human nature is so well disposed towards
those who are in interesting situations, that a young person, who either
marries or dies, is sure of being kindly spoken of.
A week had not passed since Miss Hawkins's
name was first mentioned in Highbury, before she was, by some means or other,
discovered to have every recommendation of person and mind; to be handsome,
elegant, highly accomplished, and perfectly amiable: and when Mr. Elton himself
arrived to triumph in his happy prospects, and circulate the fame of her
merits, there was very little more for him to do, than to tell her Christian
name, and say whose music she principally played.
Mr. Elton returned, a very happy man. He had
gone away rejected and mortified—disappointed in a very sanguine hope, after a
series of what appeared to him strong encouragement; and not only losing the
right lady, but finding himself debased to the level of a very wrong one. He
had gone away deeply offended—he came back engaged to another—and to another as
superior, of course, to the first, as under such circumstances what is gained
always is to what is lost. He came back gay and self-satisfied, eager and busy,
caring nothing for Miss Woodhouse, and defying Miss Smith.
The charming Augusta Hawkins, in addition to
all the usual advantages of perfect beauty and merit, was in possession of an
independent fortune, of so many thousands as would always be called ten; a
point of some dignity, as well as some convenience: the story told well; he had
not thrown himself away—he had gained a woman of 10,000 l. or thereabouts; and
he had gained her with such delightful rapidity—the first hour of introduction
had been so very soon followed by distinguishing notice; the history which he
had to give Mrs. Cole of the rise and progress of the affair was so
glorious—the steps so quick, from the accidental rencontre, to the dinner at
Mr. Green's, and the party at Mrs. Brown's—smiles and blushes rising in importance—with
consciousness and agitation richly scattered—the lady had been so easily
impressed—so sweetly disposed—had in short, to use a most intelligible phrase,
been so very ready to have him, that vanity and prudence were equally
contented.
He had caught both substance and shadow—both
fortune and affection, and was just the happy man he ought to be; talking only
of himself and his own concerns—expecting to be congratulated—ready to be
laughed at—and, with cordial, fearless smiles, now addressing all the young
ladies of the place, to whom, a few weeks ago, he would have been more
cautiously gallant.
The wedding was no distant event, as the
parties had only themselves to please, and nothing but the necessary
preparations to wait for; and when he set out for Bath again, there was a
general expectation, which a certain glance of Mrs. Cole's did not seem to
contradict, that when he next entered Highbury he would bring his bride.
During his present short stay, Emma had
barely seen him; but just enough to feel that the first meeting was over, and
to give her the impression of his not being improved by the mixture of pique
and pretension, now spread over his air. She was, in fact, beginning very much
to wonder that she had ever thought him pleasing at all; and his sight was so
inseparably connected with some very disagreeable feelings, that, except in a
moral light, as a penance, a lesson, a source of profitable humiliation to her
own mind, she would have been thankful to be assured of never seeing him again.
She wished him very well; but he gave her pain, and his welfare twenty miles
off would administer most satisfaction.
The pain of his continued residence in
Highbury, however, must certainly be lessened by his marriage. Many vain
solicitudes would be prevented—many awkwardnesses smoothed by it. A Mrs.
Elton would be an excuse for any change of intercourse; former intimacy
might sink without remark. It would be almost beginning their life of civility
again.
Of the lady, individually, Emma thought very
little. She was good enough for Mr. Elton, no doubt; accomplished enough for
Highbury—handsome enough—to look plain, probably, by Harriet's side. As to
connexion, there Emma was perfectly easy; persuaded, that after all his own
vaunted claims and disdain of Harriet, he had done nothing. On that article,
truth seemed attainable. What she was, must be uncertain; but who
she was, might be found out; and setting aside the 10,000 l., it did not appear
that she was at all Harriet's superior. She brought no name, no blood, no
alliance. Miss Hawkins was the youngest of the two daughters of a
Bristol—merchant, of course, he must be called; but, as the whole of the
profits of his mercantile life appeared so very moderate, it was not unfair to
guess the dignity of his line of trade had been very moderate also. Part of
every winter she had been used to spend in Bath; but Bristol was her home, the
very heart of Bristol; for though the father and mother had died some years
ago, an uncle remained—in the law line—nothing more distinctly honourable was
hazarded of him, than that he was in the law line; and with him the daughter
had lived. Emma guessed him to be the drudge of some attorney, and too stupid
to rise. And all the grandeur of the connexion seemed dependent on the elder
sister, who was very well married, to a gentleman in a great
way, near Bristol, who kept two carriages! That was the wind-up of the
history; that was the glory of Miss Hawkins.
Could she but have given Harriet her feelings
about it all! She had talked her into love; but, alas! she was not so easily to
be talked out of it. The charm of an object to occupy the many vacancies of
Harriet's mind was not to be talked away. He might be superseded by another; he
certainly would indeed; nothing could be clearer; even a Robert Martin would
have been sufficient; but nothing else, she feared, would cure her. Harriet was
one of those, who, having once begun, would be always in love. And now, poor
girl! she was considerably worse from this reappearance of Mr. Elton. She was
always having a glimpse of him somewhere or other. Emma saw him only once; but
two or three times every day Harriet was sure just to meet with him, or just
to miss him, just to hear his voice, or see his shoulder, just to
have something occur to preserve him in her fancy, in all the favouring warmth
of surprize and conjecture. She was, moreover, perpetually hearing about him;
for, excepting when at Hartfield, she was always among those who saw no fault
in Mr. Elton, and found nothing so interesting as the discussion of his
concerns; and every report, therefore, every guess—all that had already
occurred, all that might occur in the arrangement of his affairs, comprehending
income, servants, and furniture, was continually in agitation around her. Her
regard was receiving strength by invariable praise of him, and her regrets kept
alive, and feelings irritated by ceaseless repetitions of Miss Hawkins's
happiness, and continual observation of, how much he seemed attached!—his air
as he walked by the house—the very sitting of his hat, being all in proof of
how much he was in love!
Had it been allowable entertainment, had
there been no pain to her friend, or reproach to herself, in the waverings of
Harriet's mind, Emma would have been amused by its variations. Sometimes Mr.
Elton predominated, sometimes the Martins; and each was occasionally useful as
a check to the other. Mr. Elton's engagement had been the cure of the agitation
of meeting Mr. Martin. The unhappiness produced by the knowledge of that
engagement had been a little put aside by Elizabeth Martin's calling at Mrs.
Goddard's a few days afterwards. Harriet had not been at home; but a note had
been prepared and left for her, written in the very style to touch; a small
mixture of reproach, with a great deal of kindness; and till Mr. Elton himself
appeared, she had been much occupied by it, continually pondering over what
could be done in return, and wishing to do more than she dared to confess. But
Mr. Elton, in person, had driven away all such cares. While he staid, the
Martins were forgotten; and on the very morning of his setting off for Bath
again, Emma, to dissipate some of the distress it occasioned, judged it best
for her to return Elizabeth Martin's visit.
How that visit was to be acknowledged—what
would be necessary—and what might be safest, had been a point of some doubtful
consideration. Absolute neglect of the mother and sisters, when invited to
come, would be ingratitude. It must not be: and yet the danger of a renewal of
the acquaintance—!
After much thinking, she could determine on
nothing better, than Harriet's returning the visit; but in a way that, if they
had understanding, should convince them that it was to be only a formal
acquaintance. She meant to take her in the carriage, leave her at the Abbey
Mill, while she drove a little farther, and call for her again so soon, as to
allow no time for insidious applications or dangerous recurrences to the past,
and give the most decided proof of what degree of intimacy was chosen for the
future.
She could think of nothing better: and though
there was something in it which her own heart could not approve—something of
ingratitude, merely glossed over—it must be done, or what would become of
Harriet?
CHAPTER V
Small heart had Harriet for visiting. Only
half an hour before her friend called for her at Mrs. Goddard's, her evil stars
had led her to the very spot where, at that moment, a trunk, directed to The
Rev. Philip Elton, White-Hart, Bath, was to be seen under the operation of
being lifted into the butcher's cart, which was to convey it to where the
coaches past; and every thing in this world, excepting that trunk and the
direction, was consequently a blank.
She went, however; and when they reached the
farm, and she was to be put down, at the end of the broad, neat gravel walk,
which led between espalier apple-trees to the front door, the sight of every
thing which had given her so much pleasure the autumn before, was beginning to
revive a little local agitation; and when they parted, Emma observed her to be
looking around with a sort of fearful curiosity, which determined her not to
allow the visit to exceed the proposed quarter of an hour. She went on herself,
to give that portion of time to an old servant who was married, and settled in
Donwell.
The quarter of an hour brought her punctually
to the white gate again; and Miss Smith receiving her summons, was with her
without delay, and unattended by any alarming young man. She came solitarily
down the gravel walk—a Miss Martin just appearing at the door, and parting with
her seemingly with ceremonious civility.
Harriet could not very soon give an
intelligible account. She was feeling too much; but at last Emma collected from
her enough to understand the sort of meeting, and the sort of pain it was
creating. She had seen only Mrs. Martin and the two girls. They had received
her doubtingly, if not coolly; and nothing beyond the merest commonplace had
been talked almost all the time—till just at last, when Mrs. Martin's saying,
all of a sudden, that she thought Miss Smith was grown, had brought on a more
interesting subject, and a warmer manner. In that very room she had been
measured last September, with her two friends. There were the pencilled marks
and memorandums on the wainscot by the window. He had done it. They all
seemed to remember the day, the hour, the party, the occasion—to feel the same
consciousness, the same regrets—to be ready to return to the same good
understanding; and they were just growing again like themselves, (Harriet, as
Emma must suspect, as ready as the best of them to be cordial and happy,) when
the carriage reappeared, and all was over. The style of the visit, and the
shortness of it, were then felt to be decisive. Fourteen minutes to be given to
those with whom she had thankfully passed six weeks not six months ago!—Emma
could not but picture it all, and feel how justly they might resent, how
naturally Harriet must suffer. It was a bad business. She would have given a
great deal, or endured a great deal, to have had the Martins in a higher rank
of life. They were so deserving, that a little higher should have been
enough: but as it was, how could she have done otherwise?—Impossible!—She could
not repent. They must be separated; but there was a great deal of pain in the
process—so much to herself at this time, that she soon felt the necessity of a
little consolation, and resolved on going home by way of Randalls to procure
it. Her mind was quite sick of Mr. Elton and the Martins. The refreshment of
Randalls was absolutely necessary.
It was a good scheme; but on driving to the
door they heard that neither “master nor mistress was at home;” they had both
been out some time; the man believed they were gone to Hartfield.
“This is too bad,” cried Emma, as they turned
away. “And now we shall just miss them; too provoking!—I do not know when I
have been so disappointed.” And she leaned back in the corner, to indulge her
murmurs, or to reason them away; probably a little of both—such being the
commonest process of a not ill-disposed mind. Presently the carriage stopt; she
looked up; it was stopt by Mr. and Mrs. Weston, who were standing to speak to
her. There was instant pleasure in the sight of them, and still greater
pleasure was conveyed in sound—for Mr. Weston immediately accosted her with,
“How d'ye do?—how d'ye do?—We have been
sitting with your father—glad to see him so well. Frank comes to-morrow—I had a
letter this morning—we see him to-morrow by dinner-time to a certainty—he is at
Oxford to-day, and he comes for a whole fortnight; I knew it would be so. If he
had come at Christmas he could not have staid three days; I was always glad he
did not come at Christmas; now we are going to have just the right weather for
him, fine, dry, settled weather. We shall enjoy him completely; every thing has
turned out exactly as we could wish.”
There was no resisting such news, no
possibility of avoiding the influence of such a happy face as Mr. Weston's,
confirmed as it all was by the words and the countenance of his wife, fewer and
quieter, but not less to the purpose. To know that she thought his
coming certain was enough to make Emma consider it so, and sincerely did she
rejoice in their joy. It was a most delightful reanimation of exhausted
spirits. The worn-out past was sunk in the freshness of what was coming; and in
the rapidity of half a moment's thought, she hoped Mr. Elton would now be
talked of no more.
Mr. Weston gave her the history of the
engagements at Enscombe, which allowed his son to answer for having an entire
fortnight at his command, as well as the route and the method of his journey;
and she listened, and smiled, and congratulated.
“I shall soon bring him over to Hartfield,”
said he, at the conclusion.
Emma could imagine she saw a touch of the arm
at this speech, from his wife.
“We had better move on, Mr. Weston,” said
she, “we are detaining the girls.”
“Well, well, I am ready;”—and turning again
to Emma, “but you must not be expecting such a very fine young man; you
have only had my account you know; I dare say he is really nothing
extraordinary:”—though his own sparkling eyes at the moment were speaking a
very different conviction.
Emma could look perfectly unconscious and
innocent, and answer in a manner that appropriated nothing.
“Think of me to-morrow, my dear Emma, about
four o'clock,” was Mrs. Weston's parting injunction; spoken with some anxiety,
and meant only for her.
“Four o'clock!—depend upon it he will be here
by three,” was Mr. Weston's quick amendment; and so ended a most satisfactory
meeting. Emma's spirits were mounted quite up to happiness; every thing wore a
different air; James and his horses seemed not half so sluggish as before. When
she looked at the hedges, she thought the elder at least must soon be coming
out; and when she turned round to Harriet, she saw something like a look of
spring, a tender smile even there.
“Will Mr. Frank Churchill pass through Bath
as well as Oxford?”—was a question, however, which did not augur much.
But neither geography nor tranquillity could
come all at once, and Emma was now in a humour to resolve that they should both
come in time.
The morning of the interesting day arrived,
and Mrs. Weston's faithful pupil did not forget either at ten, or eleven, or
twelve o'clock, that she was to think of her at four.
“My dear, dear anxious friend,”—said she, in
mental soliloquy, while walking downstairs from her own room, “always
overcareful for every body's comfort but your own; I see you now in all your
little fidgets, going again and again into his room, to be sure that all is
right.” The clock struck twelve as she passed through the hall. “'Tis twelve; I
shall not forget to think of you four hours hence; and by this time to-morrow,
perhaps, or a little later, I may be thinking of the possibility of their all
calling here. I am sure they will bring him soon.”
She opened the parlour door, and saw two
gentlemen sitting with her father—Mr. Weston and his son. They had been arrived
only a few minutes, and Mr. Weston had scarcely finished his explanation of
Frank's being a day before his time, and her father was yet in the midst of his
very civil welcome and congratulations, when she appeared, to have her share of
surprize, introduction, and pleasure.
The Frank Churchill so long talked of, so
high in interest, was actually before her—he was presented to her, and she did
not think too much had been said in his praise; he was a very good
looking young man; height, air, address, all were unexceptionable, and his
countenance had a great deal of the spirit and liveliness of his father's; he
looked quick and sensible. She felt immediately that she should like him; and
there was a well-bred ease of manner, and a readiness to talk, which convinced
her that he came intending to be acquainted with her, and that acquainted they
soon must be.
He had reached Randalls the evening before.
She was pleased with the eagerness to arrive which had made him alter his plan,
and travel earlier, later, and quicker, that he might gain half a day.
“I told you yesterday,” cried Mr. Weston with
exultation, “I told you all that he would be here before the time named. I
remembered what I used to do myself. One cannot creep upon a journey; one
cannot help getting on faster than one has planned; and the pleasure of coming
in upon one's friends before the look-out begins, is worth a great deal more
than any little exertion it needs.”
“It is a great pleasure where one can indulge
in it,” said the young man, “though there are not many houses that I should
presume on so far; but in coming home I felt I might do any thing.”
The word home made his father look on
him with fresh complacency. Emma was directly sure that he knew how to make
himself agreeable; the conviction was strengthened by what followed. He was
very much pleased with Randalls, thought it a most admirably arranged house,
would hardly allow it even to be very small, admired the situation, the walk to
Highbury, Highbury itself, Hartfield still more, and professed himself to have
always felt the sort of interest in the country which none but one's own
country gives, and the greatest curiosity to visit it. That he should never
have been able to indulge so amiable a feeling before, passed suspiciously
through Emma's brain; but still, if it were a falsehood, it was a pleasant one,
and pleasantly handled. His manner had no air of study or exaggeration. He did
really look and speak as if in a state of no common enjoyment.
Their subjects in general were such as belong
to an opening acquaintance. On his side were the inquiries,—“Was she a
horsewoman?—Pleasant rides?—Pleasant walks?—Had they a large
neighbourhood?—Highbury, perhaps, afforded society enough?—There were several
very pretty houses in and about it.—Balls—had they balls?—Was it a musical
society?”
But when satisfied on all these points, and
their acquaintance proportionably advanced, he contrived to find an
opportunity, while their two fathers were engaged with each other, of
introducing his mother-in-law, and speaking of her with so much handsome
praise, so much warm admiration, so much gratitude for the happiness she
secured to his father, and her very kind reception of himself, as was an
additional proof of his knowing how to please—and of his certainly thinking it
worth while to try to please her. He did not advance a word of praise beyond
what she knew to be thoroughly deserved by Mrs. Weston; but, undoubtedly he
could know very little of the matter. He understood what would be welcome; he
could be sure of little else. “His father's marriage,” he said, “had been the
wisest measure, every friend must rejoice in it; and the family from whom he
had received such a blessing must be ever considered as having conferred the
highest obligation on him.”
He got as near as he could to thanking her
for Miss Taylor's merits, without seeming quite to forget that in the common
course of things it was to be rather supposed that Miss Taylor had formed Miss
Woodhouse's character, than Miss Woodhouse Miss Taylor's. And at last, as if resolved
to qualify his opinion completely for travelling round to its object, he wound
it all up with astonishment at the youth and beauty of her person.
“Elegant, agreeable manners, I was prepared
for,” said he; “but I confess that, considering every thing, I had not expected
more than a very tolerably well-looking woman of a certain age; I did not know
that I was to find a pretty young woman in Mrs. Weston.”
“You cannot see too much perfection in Mrs.
Weston for my feelings,” said Emma; “were you to guess her to be eighteen,
I should listen with pleasure; but she would be ready to quarrel with
you for using such words. Don't let her imagine that you have spoken of her as
a pretty young woman.”
“I hope I should know better,” he replied;
“no, depend upon it, (with a gallant bow,) that in addressing Mrs. Weston I
should understand whom I might praise without any danger of being thought
extravagant in my terms.”
Emma wondered whether the same suspicion of
what might be expected from their knowing each other, which had taken strong
possession of her mind, had ever crossed his; and whether his compliments were
to be considered as marks of acquiescence, or proofs of defiance. She must see
more of him to understand his ways; at present she only felt they were
agreeable.
She had no doubt of what Mr. Weston was often
thinking about. His quick eye she detected again and again glancing towards
them with a happy expression; and even, when he might have determined not to
look, she was confident that he was often listening.
Her own father's perfect exemption from any
thought of the kind, the entire deficiency in him of all such sort of
penetration or suspicion, was a most comfortable circumstance. Happily he was
not farther from approving matrimony than from foreseeing it.—Though always
objecting to every marriage that was arranged, he never suffered beforehand
from the apprehension of any; it seemed as if he could not think so ill of any
two persons' understanding as to suppose they meant to marry till it were
proved against them. She blessed the favouring blindness. He could now, without
the drawback of a single unpleasant surmise, without a glance forward at any
possible treachery in his guest, give way to all his natural kind-hearted
civility in solicitous inquiries after Mr. Frank Churchill's accommodation on
his journey, through the sad evils of sleeping two nights on the road, and
express very genuine unmixed anxiety to know that he had certainly escaped
catching cold—which, however, he could not allow him to feel quite assured of
himself till after another night.
A reasonable visit paid, Mr. Weston began to
move.—“He must be going. He had business at the Crown about his hay, and a
great many errands for Mrs. Weston at Ford's, but he need not hurry any body
else.” His son, too well bred to hear the hint, rose immediately also, saying,
“As you are going farther on business, sir, I
will take the opportunity of paying a visit, which must be paid some day or
other, and therefore may as well be paid now. I have the honour of being
acquainted with a neighbour of yours, (turning to Emma,) a lady residing in or
near Highbury; a family of the name of Fairfax. I shall have no difficulty, I
suppose, in finding the house; though Fairfax, I believe, is not the proper
name—I should rather say Barnes, or Bates. Do you know any family of that
name?”
“To be sure we do,” cried his father; “Mrs.
Bates—we passed her house—I saw Miss Bates at the window. True, true, you are
acquainted with Miss Fairfax; I remember you knew her at Weymouth, and a fine
girl she is. Call upon her, by all means.”
“There is no necessity for my calling this
morning,” said the young man; “another day would do as well; but there was that
degree of acquaintance at Weymouth which—”
“Oh! go to-day, go to-day. Do not defer it.
What is right to be done cannot be done too soon. And, besides, I must give you
a hint, Frank; any want of attention to her here should be carefully
avoided. You saw her with the Campbells, when she was the equal of every body
she mixed with, but here she is with a poor old grandmother, who has barely
enough to live on. If you do not call early it will be a slight.”
The son looked convinced.
“I have heard her speak of the acquaintance,”
said Emma; “she is a very elegant young woman.”
He agreed to it, but with so quiet a “Yes,”
as inclined her almost to doubt his real concurrence; and yet there must be a
very distinct sort of elegance for the fashionable world, if Jane Fairfax could
be thought only ordinarily gifted with it.
“If you were never particularly struck by her
manners before,” said she, “I think you will to-day. You will see her to
advantage; see her and hear her—no, I am afraid you will not hear her at all,
for she has an aunt who never holds her tongue.”
“You are acquainted with Miss Jane Fairfax,
sir, are you?” said Mr. Woodhouse, always the last to make his way in
conversation; “then give me leave to assure you that you will find her a very
agreeable young lady. She is staying here on a visit to her grandmama and aunt,
very worthy people; I have known them all my life. They will be extremely glad
to see you, I am sure; and one of my servants shall go with you to shew you the
way.”
“My dear sir, upon no account in the world;
my father can direct me.”
“But your father is not going so far; he is
only going to the Crown, quite on the other side of the street, and there are a
great many houses; you might be very much at a loss, and it is a very dirty
walk, unless you keep on the footpath; but my coachman can tell you where you
had best cross the street.”
Mr. Frank Churchill still declined it, looking
as serious as he could, and his father gave his hearty support by calling out,
“My good friend, this is quite unnecessary; Frank knows a puddle of water when
he sees it, and as to Mrs. Bates's, he may get there from the Crown in a hop,
step, and jump.”
They were permitted to go alone; and with a
cordial nod from one, and a graceful bow from the other, the two gentlemen took
leave. Emma remained very well pleased with this beginning of the acquaintance,
and could now engage to think of them all at Randalls any hour of the day, with
full confidence in their comfort.
CHAPTER VI
The next morning brought Mr. Frank Churchill
again. He came with Mrs. Weston, to whom and to Highbury he seemed to take very
cordially. He had been sitting with her, it appeared, most companionably at
home, till her usual hour of exercise; and on being desired to chuse their
walk, immediately fixed on Highbury.—“He did not doubt there being very
pleasant walks in every direction, but if left to him, he should always chuse
the same. Highbury, that airy, cheerful, happy-looking Highbury, would be his
constant attraction.”—Highbury, with Mrs. Weston, stood for Hartfield; and she
trusted to its bearing the same construction with him. They walked thither
directly.
Emma had hardly expected them: for Mr.
Weston, who had called in for half a minute, in order to hear that his son was
very handsome, knew nothing of their plans; and it was an agreeable surprize to
her, therefore, to perceive them walking up to the house together, arm in arm.
She was wanting to see him again, and especially to see him in company with Mrs.
Weston, upon his behaviour to whom her opinion of him was to depend. If he were
deficient there, nothing should make amends for it. But on seeing them
together, she became perfectly satisfied. It was not merely in fine words or
hyperbolical compliment that he paid his duty; nothing could be more proper or
pleasing than his whole manner to her—nothing could more agreeably denote his
wish of considering her as a friend and securing her affection. And there was
time enough for Emma to form a reasonable judgment, as their visit included all
the rest of the morning. They were all three walking about together for an hour
or two—first round the shrubberies of Hartfield, and afterwards in Highbury. He
was delighted with every thing; admired Hartfield sufficiently for Mr.
Woodhouse's ear; and when their going farther was resolved on, confessed his
wish to be made acquainted with the whole village, and found matter of
commendation and interest much oftener than Emma could have supposed.
Some of the objects of his curiosity spoke
very amiable feelings. He begged to be shewn the house which his father had
lived in so long, and which had been the home of his father's father; and on
recollecting that an old woman who had nursed him was still living, walked in
quest of her cottage from one end of the street to the other; and though in
some points of pursuit or observation there was no positive merit, they shewed,
altogether, a good-will towards Highbury in general, which must be very like a
merit to those he was with.
Emma watched and decided, that with such
feelings as were now shewn, it could not be fairly supposed that he had been
ever voluntarily absenting himself; that he had not been acting a part, or
making a parade of insincere professions; and that Mr. Knightley certainly had
not done him justice.
Their first pause was at the Crown Inn, an
inconsiderable house, though the principal one of the sort, where a couple of
pair of post-horses were kept, more for the convenience of the neighbourhood
than from any run on the road; and his companions had not expected to be
detained by any interest excited there; but in passing it they gave the history
of the large room visibly added; it had been built many years ago for a
ball-room, and while the neighbourhood had been in a particularly populous,
dancing state, had been occasionally used as such;—but such brilliant days had
long passed away, and now the highest purpose for which it was ever wanted was
to accommodate a whist club established among the gentlemen and half-gentlemen
of the place. He was immediately interested. Its character as a ball-room
caught him; and instead of passing on, he stopt for several minutes at the two
superior sashed windows which were open, to look in and contemplate its
capabilities, and lament that its original purpose should have ceased. He saw
no fault in the room, he would acknowledge none which they suggested. No, it
was long enough, broad enough, handsome enough. It would hold the very number
for comfort. They ought to have balls there at least every fortnight through
the winter. Why had not Miss Woodhouse revived the former good old days of the
room?—She who could do any thing in Highbury! The want of proper families in
the place, and the conviction that none beyond the place and its immediate
environs could be tempted to attend, were mentioned; but he was not satisfied.
He could not be persuaded that so many good-looking houses as he saw around
him, could not furnish numbers enough for such a meeting; and even when
particulars were given and families described, he was still unwilling to admit
that the inconvenience of such a mixture would be any thing, or that there
would be the smallest difficulty in every body's returning into their proper
place the next morning. He argued like a young man very much bent on dancing;
and Emma was rather surprized to see the constitution of the Weston prevail so
decidedly against the habits of the Churchills. He seemed to have all the life
and spirit, cheerful feelings, and social inclinations of his father, and
nothing of the pride or reserve of Enscombe. Of pride, indeed, there was,
perhaps, scarcely enough; his indifference to a confusion of rank, bordered too
much on inelegance of mind. He could be no judge, however, of the evil he was
holding cheap. It was but an effusion of lively spirits.
At last he was persuaded to move on from the
front of the Crown; and being now almost facing the house where the Bateses
lodged, Emma recollected his intended visit the day before, and asked him if he
had paid it.
“Yes, oh! yes”—he replied; “I was just going
to mention it. A very successful visit:—I saw all the three ladies; and felt
very much obliged to you for your preparatory hint. If the talking aunt had
taken me quite by surprize, it must have been the death of me. As it was, I was
only betrayed into paying a most unreasonable visit. Ten minutes would have
been all that was necessary, perhaps all that was proper; and I had told my
father I should certainly be at home before him—but there was no getting away,
no pause; and, to my utter astonishment, I found, when he (finding me nowhere
else) joined me there at last, that I had been actually sitting with them very
nearly three-quarters of an hour. The good lady had not given me the
possibility of escape before.”
“And how did you think Miss Fairfax looking?”
“Ill, very ill—that is, if a young lady can
ever be allowed to look ill. But the expression is hardly admissible, Mrs.
Weston, is it? Ladies can never look ill. And, seriously, Miss Fairfax is
naturally so pale, as almost always to give the appearance of ill health.—A
most deplorable want of complexion.”
Emma would not agree to this, and began a
warm defence of Miss Fairfax's complexion. “It was certainly never brilliant,
but she would not allow it to have a sickly hue in general; and there was a
softness and delicacy in her skin which gave peculiar elegance to the character
of her face.” He listened with all due deference; acknowledged that he had
heard many people say the same—but yet he must confess, that to him nothing
could make amends for the want of the fine glow of health. Where features were
indifferent, a fine complexion gave beauty to them all; and where they were
good, the effect was—fortunately he need not attempt to describe what the
effect was.
“Well,” said Emma, “there is no disputing
about taste.—At least you admire her except her complexion.”
He shook his head and laughed.—“I cannot
separate Miss Fairfax and her complexion.”
“Did you see her often at Weymouth? Were you
often in the same society?”
At this moment they were approaching Ford's,
and he hastily exclaimed, “Ha! this must be the very shop that every body
attends every day of their lives, as my father informs me. He comes to Highbury
himself, he says, six days out of the seven, and has always business at Ford's.
If it be not inconvenient to you, pray let us go in, that I may prove myself to
belong to the place, to be a true citizen of Highbury. I must buy something at
Ford's. It will be taking out my freedom.—I dare say they sell gloves.”
“Oh! yes, gloves and every thing. I do admire
your patriotism. You will be adored in Highbury. You were very popular before
you came, because you were Mr. Weston's son—but lay out half a guinea at
Ford's, and your popularity will stand upon your own virtues.”
They went in; and while the sleek, well-tied
parcels of “Men's Beavers” and “York Tan” were bringing down and displaying on
the counter, he said—“But I beg your pardon, Miss Woodhouse, you were speaking
to me, you were saying something at the very moment of this burst of my amor
patriae. Do not let me lose it. I assure you the utmost stretch of
public fame would not make me amends for the loss of any happiness in private
life.”
“I merely asked, whether you had known much
of Miss Fairfax and her party at Weymouth.”
“And now that I understand your question, I
must pronounce it to be a very unfair one. It is always the lady's right to
decide on the degree of acquaintance. Miss Fairfax must already have given her
account.—I shall not commit myself by claiming more than she may chuse to
allow.”
“Upon my word! you answer as discreetly as
she could do herself. But her account of every thing leaves so much to be
guessed, she is so very reserved, so very unwilling to give the least
information about any body, that I really think you may say what you like of
your acquaintance with her.”
“May I, indeed?—Then I will speak the truth,
and nothing suits me so well. I met her frequently at Weymouth. I had known the
Campbells a little in town; and at Weymouth we were very much in the same set.
Colonel Campbell is a very agreeable man, and Mrs. Campbell a friendly,
warm-hearted woman. I like them all.”
“You know Miss Fairfax's situation in life, I
conclude; what she is destined to be?”
“Yes—(rather hesitatingly)—I believe I do.”
“You get upon delicate subjects, Emma,” said
Mrs. Weston smiling; “remember that I am here.—Mr. Frank Churchill hardly knows
what to say when you speak of Miss Fairfax's situation in life. I will move a
little farther off.”
“I certainly do forget to think of her,”
said Emma, “as having ever been any thing but my friend and my dearest friend.”
He looked as if he fully understood and
honoured such a sentiment.
When the gloves were bought, and they had
quitted the shop again, “Did you ever hear the young lady we were speaking of,
play?” said Frank Churchill.
“Ever hear her!” repeated Emma. “You forget
how much she belongs to Highbury. I have heard her every year of our lives
since we both began. She plays charmingly.”
“You think so, do you?—I wanted the opinion
of some one who could really judge. She appeared to me to play well, that is,
with considerable taste, but I know nothing of the matter myself.—I am
excessively fond of music, but without the smallest skill or right of judging
of any body's performance.—I have been used to hear her's admired; and I
remember one proof of her being thought to play well:—a man, a very musical
man, and in love with another woman—engaged to her—on the point of
marriage—would yet never ask that other woman to sit down to the instrument, if
the lady in question could sit down instead—never seemed to like to hear one if
he could hear the other. That, I thought, in a man of known musical talent, was
some proof.”
“Proof indeed!” said Emma, highly
amused.—“Mr. Dixon is very musical, is he? We shall know more about them all,
in half an hour, from you, than Miss Fairfax would have vouchsafed in half a
year.”
“Yes, Mr. Dixon and Miss Campbell were the
persons; and I thought it a very strong proof.”
“Certainly—very strong it was; to own the
truth, a great deal stronger than, if I had been Miss Campbell, would
have been at all agreeable to me. I could not excuse a man's having more music
than love—more ear than eye—a more acute sensibility to fine sounds than to my
feelings. How did Miss Campbell appear to like it?”
“It was her very particular friend, you
know.”
“Poor comfort!” said Emma, laughing. “One
would rather have a stranger preferred than one's very particular friend—with a
stranger it might not recur again—but the misery of having a very particular
friend always at hand, to do every thing better than one does oneself!—Poor
Mrs. Dixon! Well, I am glad she is gone to settle in Ireland.”
“You are right. It was not very flattering to
Miss Campbell; but she really did not seem to feel it.”
“So much the better—or so much the worse:—I
do not know which. But be it sweetness or be it stupidity in her—quickness of
friendship, or dulness of feeling—there was one person, I think, who must have
felt it: Miss Fairfax herself. She must have felt the improper and dangerous
distinction.”
“As to that—I do not—”
“Oh! do not imagine that I expect an account
of Miss Fairfax's sensations from you, or from any body else. They are known to
no human being, I guess, but herself. But if she continued to play whenever she
was asked by Mr. Dixon, one may guess what one chuses.”
“There appeared such a perfectly good
understanding among them all—” he began rather quickly, but checking himself,
added, “however, it is impossible for me to say on what terms they really
were—how it might all be behind the scenes. I can only say that there was
smoothness outwardly. But you, who have known Miss Fairfax from a child, must
be a better judge of her character, and of how she is likely to conduct herself
in critical situations, than I can be.”
“I have known her from a child, undoubtedly;
we have been children and women together; and it is natural to suppose that we
should be intimate,—that we should have taken to each other whenever she
visited her friends. But we never did. I hardly know how it has happened; a
little, perhaps, from that wickedness on my side which was prone to take
disgust towards a girl so idolized and so cried up as she always was, by her
aunt and grandmother, and all their set. And then, her reserve—I never could
attach myself to any one so completely reserved.”
“It is a most repulsive quality, indeed,”
said he. “Oftentimes very convenient, no doubt, but never pleasing. There is
safety in reserve, but no attraction. One cannot love a reserved person.”
“Not till the reserve ceases towards oneself;
and then the attraction may be the greater. But I must be more in want of a
friend, or an agreeable companion, than I have yet been, to take the trouble of
conquering any body's reserve to procure one. Intimacy between Miss Fairfax and
me is quite out of the question. I have no reason to think ill of her—not the
least—except that such extreme and perpetual cautiousness of word and manner,
such a dread of giving a distinct idea about any body, is apt to suggest
suspicions of there being something to conceal.”
He perfectly agreed with her: and after
walking together so long, and thinking so much alike, Emma felt herself so well
acquainted with him, that she could hardly believe it to be only their second
meeting. He was not exactly what she had expected; less of the man of the world
in some of his notions, less of the spoiled child of fortune, therefore better
than she had expected. His ideas seemed more moderate—his feelings warmer. She
was particularly struck by his manner of considering Mr. Elton's house, which,
as well as the church, he would go and look at, and would not join them in
finding much fault with. No, he could not believe it a bad house; not such a
house as a man was to be pitied for having. If it were to be shared with the
woman he loved, he could not think any man to be pitied for having that house.
There must be ample room in it for every real comfort. The man must be a
blockhead who wanted more.
Mrs. Weston laughed, and said he did not know
what he was talking about. Used only to a large house himself, and without ever
thinking how many advantages and accommodations were attached to its size, he
could be no judge of the privations inevitably belonging to a small one. But
Emma, in her own mind, determined that he did know what he was talking
about, and that he shewed a very amiable inclination to settle early in life,
and to marry, from worthy motives. He might not be aware of the inroads on
domestic peace to be occasioned by no housekeeper's room, or a bad butler's
pantry, but no doubt he did perfectly feel that Enscombe could not make him
happy, and that whenever he were attached, he would willingly give up much of
wealth to be allowed an early establishment.
To
be continued
EMMA
PART 7
VOLUME
II
CHAPTER I
Emma and Harriet had been walking together
one morning, and, in Emma's opinion, had been talking enough of Mr. Elton for
that day. She could not think that Harriet's solace or her own sins required
more; and she was therefore industriously getting rid of the subject as they
returned;—but it burst out again when she thought she had succeeded, and after
speaking some time of what the poor must suffer in winter, and receiving no
other answer than a very plaintive—“Mr. Elton is so good to the poor!” she
found something else must be done.
They were just approaching the house where
lived Mrs. and Miss Bates. She determined to call upon them and seek safety in
numbers. There was always sufficient reason for such an attention; Mrs. and
Miss Bates loved to be called on, and she knew she was considered by the very
few who presumed ever to see imperfection in her, as rather negligent in that
respect, and as not contributing what she ought to the stock of their scanty
comforts.
She had had many a hint from Mr. Knightley
and some from her own heart, as to her deficiency—but none were equal to
counteract the persuasion of its being very disagreeable,—a waste of
time—tiresome women—and all the horror of being in danger of falling in with
the second-rate and third-rate of Highbury, who were calling on them for ever,
and therefore she seldom went near them. But now she made the sudden resolution
of not passing their door without going in—observing, as she proposed it to
Harriet, that, as well as she could calculate, they were just now quite safe
from any letter from Jane Fairfax.
The house belonged to people in business.
Mrs. and Miss Bates occupied the drawing-room floor; and there, in the very
moderate-sized apartment, which was every thing to them, the visitors were most
cordially and even gratefully welcomed; the quiet neat old lady, who with her
knitting was seated in the warmest corner, wanting even to give up her place to
Miss Woodhouse, and her more active, talking daughter, almost ready to
overpower them with care and kindness, thanks for their visit, solicitude for
their shoes, anxious inquiries after Mr. Woodhouse's health, cheerful
communications about her mother's, and sweet-cake from the beaufet—“Mrs. Cole
had just been there, just called in for ten minutes, and had been so good as to
sit an hour with them, and she had taken a piece of cake and been so
kind as to say she liked it very much; and, therefore, she hoped Miss Woodhouse
and Miss Smith would do them the favour to eat a piece too.”
The mention of the Coles was sure to be
followed by that of Mr. Elton. There was intimacy between them, and Mr. Cole
had heard from Mr. Elton since his going away. Emma knew what was coming; they
must have the letter over again, and settle how long he had been gone, and how much
he was engaged in company, and what a favourite he was wherever he went, and
how full the Master of the Ceremonies' ball had been; and she went through it
very well, with all the interest and all the commendation that could be
requisite, and always putting forward to prevent Harriet's being obliged to say
a word.
This she had been prepared for when she
entered the house; but meant, having once talked him handsomely over, to be no
farther incommoded by any troublesome topic, and to wander at large amongst all
the Mistresses and Misses of Highbury, and their card-parties. She had not been
prepared to have Jane Fairfax succeed Mr. Elton; but he was actually hurried
off by Miss Bates, she jumped away from him at last abruptly to the Coles, to
usher in a letter from her niece.
“Oh! yes—Mr. Elton, I understand—certainly as
to dancing—Mrs. Cole was telling me that dancing at the rooms at Bath was—Mrs.
Cole was so kind as to sit some time with us, talking of Jane; for as soon as
she came in, she began inquiring after her, Jane is so very great a favourite
there. Whenever she is with us, Mrs. Cole does not know how to shew her
kindness enough; and I must say that Jane deserves it as much as any body can.
And so she began inquiring after her directly, saying, 'I know you cannot have
heard from Jane lately, because it is not her time for writing;' and when I
immediately said, 'But indeed we have, we had a letter this very morning,' I do
not know that I ever saw any body more surprized. 'Have you, upon your honour?'
said she; 'well, that is quite unexpected. Do let me hear what she says.'”
Emma's politeness was at hand directly, to
say, with smiling interest—
“Have you heard from Miss Fairfax so lately?
I am extremely happy. I hope she is well?”
“Thank you. You are so kind!” replied the
happily deceived aunt, while eagerly hunting for the letter.—“Oh! here it is. I
was sure it could not be far off; but I had put my huswife upon it, you see,
without being aware, and so it was quite hid, but I had it in my hand so very
lately that I was almost sure it must be on the table. I was reading it to Mrs.
Cole, and since she went away, I was reading it again to my mother, for it is
such a pleasure to her—a letter from Jane—that she can never hear it often enough;
so I knew it could not be far off, and here it is, only just under my
huswife—and since you are so kind as to wish to hear what she says;—but, first
of all, I really must, in justice to Jane, apologise for her writing so short a
letter—only two pages you see—hardly two—and in general she fills the whole
paper and crosses half. My mother often wonders that I can make it out so well.
She often says, when the letter is first opened, 'Well, Hetty, now I think you
will be put to it to make out all that checker-work'—don't you, ma'am?—And then
I tell her, I am sure she would contrive to make it out herself, if she had
nobody to do it for her—every word of it—I am sure she would pore over it till
she had made out every word. And, indeed, though my mother's eyes are not so
good as they were, she can see amazingly well still, thank God! with the help
of spectacles. It is such a blessing! My mother's are really very good indeed.
Jane often says, when she is here, 'I am sure, grandmama, you must have had
very strong eyes to see as you do—and so much fine work as you have done too!—I
only wish my eyes may last me as well.'”
All this spoken extremely fast obliged Miss
Bates to stop for breath; and Emma said something very civil about the
excellence of Miss Fairfax's handwriting.
“You are extremely kind,” replied Miss Bates,
highly gratified; “you who are such a judge, and write so beautifully yourself.
I am sure there is nobody's praise that could give us so much pleasure as Miss
Woodhouse's. My mother does not hear; she is a little deaf you know. Ma'am,”
addressing her, “do you hear what Miss Woodhouse is so obliging to say about
Jane's handwriting?”
And Emma had the advantage of hearing her own
silly compliment repeated twice over before the good old lady could comprehend
it. She was pondering, in the meanwhile, upon the possibility, without seeming
very rude, of making her escape from Jane Fairfax's letter, and had almost
resolved on hurrying away directly under some slight excuse, when Miss Bates
turned to her again and seized her attention.
“My mother's deafness is very trifling you
see—just nothing at all. By only raising my voice, and saying any thing two or
three times over, she is sure to hear; but then she is used to my voice. But it
is very remarkable that she should always hear Jane better than she does me.
Jane speaks so distinct! However, she will not find her grandmama at all deafer
than she was two years ago; which is saying a great deal at my mother's time of
life—and it really is full two years, you know, since she was here. We never
were so long without seeing her before, and as I was telling Mrs. Cole, we
shall hardly know how to make enough of her now.”
“Are you expecting Miss Fairfax here soon?”
“Oh yes; next week.”
“Indeed!—that must be a very great pleasure.”
“Thank you. You are very kind. Yes, next
week. Every body is so surprized; and every body says the same obliging things.
I am sure she will be as happy to see her friends at Highbury, as they can be
to see her. Yes, Friday or Saturday; she cannot say which, because Colonel
Campbell will be wanting the carriage himself one of those days. So very good
of them to send her the whole way! But they always do, you know. Oh yes, Friday
or Saturday next. That is what she writes about. That is the reason of her
writing out of rule, as we call it; for, in the common course, we should not
have heard from her before next Tuesday or Wednesday.”
“Yes, so I imagined. I was afraid there could
be little chance of my hearing any thing of Miss Fairfax to-day.”
“So obliging of you! No, we should not have
heard, if it had not been for this particular circumstance, of her being to
come here so soon. My mother is so delighted!—for she is to be three months
with us at least. Three months, she says so, positively, as I am going to have
the pleasure of reading to you. The case is, you see, that the Campbells are
going to Ireland. Mrs. Dixon has persuaded her father and mother to come over
and see her directly. They had not intended to go over till the summer, but she
is so impatient to see them again—for till she married, last October, she was
never away from them so much as a week, which must make it very strange to be
in different kingdoms, I was going to say, but however different countries, and
so she wrote a very urgent letter to her mother—or her father, I declare I do
not know which it was, but we shall see presently in Jane's letter—wrote in Mr.
Dixon's name as well as her own, to press their coming over directly, and they
would give them the meeting in Dublin, and take them back to their country
seat, Baly-craig, a beautiful place, I fancy. Jane has heard a great deal of
its beauty; from Mr. Dixon, I mean—I do not know that she ever heard about it
from any body else; but it was very natural, you know, that he should like to
speak of his own place while he was paying his addresses—and as Jane used to be
very often walking out with them—for Colonel and Mrs. Campbell were very
particular about their daughter's not walking out often with only Mr. Dixon, for
which I do not at all blame them; of course she heard every thing he might be
telling Miss Campbell about his own home in Ireland; and I think she wrote us
word that he had shewn them some drawings of the place, views that he had taken
himself. He is a most amiable, charming young man, I believe. Jane was quite
longing to go to Ireland, from his account of things.”
At this moment, an ingenious and animating
suspicion entering Emma's brain with regard to Jane Fairfax, this charming Mr.
Dixon, and the not going to Ireland, she said, with the insidious design of
farther discovery,
“You must feel it very fortunate that Miss
Fairfax should be allowed to come to you at such a time. Considering the very
particular friendship between her and Mrs. Dixon, you could hardly have
expected her to be excused from accompanying Colonel and Mrs. Campbell.”
“Very true, very true, indeed. The very thing
that we have always been rather afraid of; for we should not have liked to have
her at such a distance from us, for months together—not able to come if any
thing was to happen. But you see, every thing turns out for the best. They want
her (Mr. and Mrs. Dixon) excessively to come over with Colonel and Mrs.
Campbell; quite depend upon it; nothing can be more kind or pressing than their
joint invitation, Jane says, as you will hear presently; Mr. Dixon does
not seem in the least backward in any attention. He is a most charming young
man. Ever since the service he rendered Jane at Weymouth, when they were out in
that party on the water, and she, by the sudden whirling round of something or
other among the sails, would have been dashed into the sea at once, and
actually was all but gone, if he had not, with the greatest presence of mind,
caught hold of her habit— (I can never think of it without trembling!)—But ever
since we had the history of that day, I have been so fond of Mr. Dixon!”
“But, in spite of all her friends' urgency,
and her own wish of seeing Ireland, Miss Fairfax prefers devoting the time to
you and Mrs. Bates?”
“Yes—entirely her own doing, entirely her own
choice; and Colonel and Mrs. Campbell think she does quite right, just what
they should recommend; and indeed they particularly wish her to try her
native air, as she has not been quite so well as usual lately.”
“I am concerned to hear of it. I think they
judge wisely. But Mrs. Dixon must be very much disappointed. Mrs. Dixon, I
understand, has no remarkable degree of personal beauty; is not, by any means,
to be compared with Miss Fairfax.”
“Oh! no. You are very obliging to say such
things—but certainly not. There is no comparison between them. Miss Campbell
always was absolutely plain—but extremely elegant and amiable.”
“Yes, that of course.”
“Jane caught a bad cold, poor thing! so long
ago as the 7th of November, (as I am going to read to you,) and has never been
well since. A long time, is not it, for a cold to hang upon her? She never
mentioned it before, because she would not alarm us. Just like her! so
considerate!—But however, she is so far from well, that her kind friends the
Campbells think she had better come home, and try an air that always agrees
with her; and they have no doubt that three or four months at Highbury will
entirely cure her—and it is certainly a great deal better that she should come
here, than go to Ireland, if she is unwell. Nobody could nurse her, as we
should do.”
“It appears to me the most desirable
arrangement in the world.”
“And so she is to come to us next Friday or
Saturday, and the Campbells leave town in their way to Holyhead the Monday
following—as you will find from Jane's letter. So sudden!—You may guess, dear
Miss Woodhouse, what a flurry it has thrown me in! If it was not for the
drawback of her illness—but I am afraid we must expect to see her grown thin,
and looking very poorly. I must tell you what an unlucky thing happened to me,
as to that. I always make a point of reading Jane's letters through to myself
first, before I read them aloud to my mother, you know, for fear of there being
any thing in them to distress her. Jane desired me to do it, so I always do:
and so I began to-day with my usual caution; but no sooner did I come to the
mention of her being unwell, than I burst out, quite frightened, with 'Bless
me! poor Jane is ill!'—which my mother, being on the watch, heard distinctly,
and was sadly alarmed at. However, when I read on, I found it was not near so
bad as I had fancied at first; and I make so light of it now to her, that she
does not think much about it. But I cannot imagine how I could be so off my
guard. If Jane does not get well soon, we will call in Mr. Perry. The expense
shall not be thought of; and though he is so liberal, and so fond of Jane that
I dare say he would not mean to charge any thing for attendance, we could not
suffer it to be so, you know. He has a wife and family to maintain, and is not
to be giving away his time. Well, now I have just given you a hint of what Jane
writes about, we will turn to her letter, and I am sure she tells her own story
a great deal better than I can tell it for her.”
“I am afraid we must be running away,” said
Emma, glancing at Harriet, and beginning to rise—“My father will be expecting
us. I had no intention, I thought I had no power of staying more than five
minutes, when I first entered the house. I merely called, because I would not
pass the door without inquiring after Mrs. Bates; but I have been so pleasantly
detained! Now, however, we must wish you and Mrs. Bates good morning.”
And not all that could be urged to detain her
succeeded. She regained the street—happy in this, that though much had been
forced on her against her will, though she had in fact heard the whole
substance of Jane Fairfax's letter, she had been able to escape the letter
itself.
CHAPTER II
Jane Fairfax was an orphan, the only child of
Mrs. Bates's youngest daughter.
The marriage of Lieut. Fairfax of the
——regiment of infantry, and Miss Jane Bates, had had its day of fame and
pleasure, hope and interest; but nothing now remained of it, save the
melancholy remembrance of him dying in action abroad—of his widow sinking under
consumption and grief soon afterwards—and this girl.
By birth she belonged to Highbury: and when
at three years old, on losing her mother, she became the property, the charge,
the consolation, the foundling of her grandmother and aunt, there had seemed
every probability of her being permanently fixed there; of her being taught
only what very limited means could command, and growing up with no advantages
of connexion or improvement, to be engrafted on what nature had given her in a
pleasing person, good understanding, and warm-hearted, well-meaning relations.
But the compassionate feelings of a friend of
her father gave a change to her destiny. This was Colonel Campbell, who had
very highly regarded Fairfax, as an excellent officer and most deserving young
man; and farther, had been indebted to him for such attentions, during a severe
camp-fever, as he believed had saved his life. These were claims which he did
not learn to overlook, though some years passed away from the death of poor
Fairfax, before his own return to England put any thing in his power. When he
did return, he sought out the child and took notice of her. He was a married
man, with only one living child, a girl, about Jane's age: and Jane became
their guest, paying them long visits and growing a favourite with all; and
before she was nine years old, his daughter's great fondness for her, and his
own wish of being a real friend, united to produce an offer from Colonel
Campbell of undertaking the whole charge of her education. It was accepted; and
from that period Jane had belonged to Colonel Campbell's family, and had lived
with them entirely, only visiting her grandmother from time to time.
The plan was that she should be brought up
for educating others; the very few hundred pounds which she inherited from her
father making independence impossible. To provide for her otherwise was out of
Colonel Campbell's power; for though his income, by pay and appointments, was
handsome, his fortune was moderate and must be all his daughter's; but, by
giving her an education, he hoped to be supplying the means of respectable
subsistence hereafter.
Such was Jane Fairfax's history. She had
fallen into good hands, known nothing but kindness from the Campbells, and been
given an excellent education. Living constantly with right-minded and
well-informed people, her heart and understanding had received every advantage
of discipline and culture; and Colonel Campbell's residence being in London,
every lighter talent had been done full justice to, by the attendance of
first-rate masters. Her disposition and abilities were equally worthy of all
that friendship could do; and at eighteen or nineteen she was, as far as such
an early age can be qualified for the care of children, fully competent to the
office of instruction herself; but she was too much beloved to be parted with.
Neither father nor mother could promote, and the daughter could not endure it.
The evil day was put off. It was easy to decide that she was still too young;
and Jane remained with them, sharing, as another daughter, in all the rational
pleasures of an elegant society, and a judicious mixture of home and amusement,
with only the drawback of the future, the sobering suggestions of her own good
understanding to remind her that all this might soon be over.
The affection of the whole family, the warm
attachment of Miss Campbell in particular, was the more honourable to each
party from the circumstance of Jane's decided superiority both in beauty and
acquirements. That nature had given it in feature could not be unseen by the
young woman, nor could her higher powers of mind be unfelt by the parents. They
continued together with unabated regard however, till the marriage of Miss
Campbell, who by that chance, that luck which so often defies anticipation in
matrimonial affairs, giving attraction to what is moderate rather than to what
is superior, engaged the affections of Mr. Dixon, a young man, rich and
agreeable, almost as soon as they were acquainted; and was eligibly and happily
settled, while Jane Fairfax had yet her bread to earn.
This event had very lately taken place; too
lately for any thing to be yet attempted by her less fortunate friend towards
entering on her path of duty; though she had now reached the age which her own
judgment had fixed on for beginning. She had long resolved that one-and-twenty
should be the period. With the fortitude of a devoted novitiate, she had
resolved at one-and-twenty to complete the sacrifice, and retire from all the
pleasures of life, of rational intercourse, equal society, peace and hope, to
penance and mortification for ever.
The good sense of Colonel and Mrs. Campbell
could not oppose such a resolution, though their feelings did. As long as they
lived, no exertions would be necessary, their home might be hers for ever; and
for their own comfort they would have retained her wholly; but this would be
selfishness:—what must be at last, had better be soon. Perhaps they began to
feel it might have been kinder and wiser to have resisted the temptation of any
delay, and spared her from a taste of such enjoyments of ease and leisure as
must now be relinquished. Still, however, affection was glad to catch at any
reasonable excuse for not hurrying on the wretched moment. She had never been
quite well since the time of their daughter's marriage; and till she should
have completely recovered her usual strength, they must forbid her engaging in
duties, which, so far from being compatible with a weakened frame and varying
spirits, seemed, under the most favourable circumstances, to require something
more than human perfection of body and mind to be discharged with tolerable
comfort.
With regard to her not accompanying them to
Ireland, her account to her aunt contained nothing but truth, though there
might be some truths not told. It was her own choice to give the time of their
absence to Highbury; to spend, perhaps, her last months of perfect liberty with
those kind relations to whom she was so very dear: and the Campbells, whatever
might be their motive or motives, whether single, or double, or treble, gave
the arrangement their ready sanction, and said, that they depended more on a
few months spent in her native air, for the recovery of her health, than on any
thing else. Certain it was that she was to come; and that Highbury, instead of
welcoming that perfect novelty which had been so long promised it—Mr. Frank
Churchill—must put up for the present with Jane Fairfax, who could bring only
the freshness of a two years' absence.
Emma was sorry;—to have to pay civilities to
a person she did not like through three long months!—to be always doing more
than she wished, and less than she ought! Why she did not like Jane Fairfax
might be a difficult question to answer; Mr. Knightley had once told her it was
because she saw in her the really accomplished young woman, which she wanted to
be thought herself; and though the accusation had been eagerly refuted at the
time, there were moments of self-examination in which her conscience could not
quite acquit her. But “she could never get acquainted with her: she did not
know how it was, but there was such coldness and reserve—such apparent
indifference whether she pleased or not—and then, her aunt was such an eternal
talker!—and she was made such a fuss with by every body!—and it had been always
imagined that they were to be so intimate—because their ages were the same,
every body had supposed they must be so fond of each other.” These were her
reasons—she had no better.
It was a dislike so little just—every imputed
fault was so magnified by fancy, that she never saw Jane Fairfax the first time
after any considerable absence, without feeling that she had injured her; and
now, when the due visit was paid, on her arrival, after a two years' interval,
she was particularly struck with the very appearance and manners, which for
those two whole years she had been depreciating. Jane Fairfax was very elegant,
remarkably elegant; and she had herself the highest value for elegance. Her
height was pretty, just such as almost every body would think tall, and nobody
could think very tall; her figure particularly graceful; her size a most
becoming medium, between fat and thin, though a slight appearance of ill-health
seemed to point out the likeliest evil of the two. Emma could not but feel all
this; and then, her face—her features—there was more beauty in them altogether
than she had remembered; it was not regular, but it was very pleasing beauty.
Her eyes, a deep grey, with dark eye-lashes and eyebrows, had never been denied
their praise; but the skin, which she had been used to cavil at, as wanting
colour, had a clearness and delicacy which really needed no fuller bloom. It
was a style of beauty, of which elegance was the reigning character, and as
such, she must, in honour, by all her principles, admire it:—elegance, which,
whether of person or of mind, she saw so little in Highbury. There, not to be
vulgar, was distinction, and merit.
In short, she sat, during the first visit,
looking at Jane Fairfax with twofold complacency; the sense of pleasure and the
sense of rendering justice, and was determining that she would dislike her no
longer. When she took in her history, indeed, her situation, as well as her
beauty; when she considered what all this elegance was destined to, what she
was going to sink from, how she was going to live, it seemed impossible to feel
any thing but compassion and respect; especially, if to every well-known
particular entitling her to interest, were added the highly probable
circumstance of an attachment to Mr. Dixon, which she had so naturally started
to herself. In that case, nothing could be more pitiable or more honourable
than the sacrifices she had resolved on. Emma was very willing now to acquit
her of having seduced Mr. Dixon's actions from his wife, or of any thing mischievous
which her imagination had suggested at first. If it were love, it might be
simple, single, successless love on her side alone. She might have been
unconsciously sucking in the sad poison, while a sharer of his conversation
with her friend; and from the best, the purest of motives, might now be denying
herself this visit to Ireland, and resolving to divide herself effectually from
him and his connexions by soon beginning her career of laborious duty.
Upon the whole, Emma left her with such softened,
charitable feelings, as made her look around in walking home, and lament that
Highbury afforded no young man worthy of giving her independence; nobody that
she could wish to scheme about for her.
These were charming feelings—but not lasting.
Before she had committed herself by any public profession of eternal friendship
for Jane Fairfax, or done more towards a recantation of past prejudices and
errors, than saying to Mr. Knightley, “She certainly is handsome; she is better
than handsome!” Jane had spent an evening at Hartfield with her grandmother and
aunt, and every thing was relapsing much into its usual state. Former
provocations reappeared. The aunt was as tiresome as ever; more tiresome,
because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration of her powers; and
they had to listen to the description of exactly how little bread and butter
she ate for breakfast, and how small a slice of mutton for dinner, as well as
to see exhibitions of new caps and new workbags for her mother and herself; and
Jane's offences rose again. They had music; Emma was obliged to play; and the
thanks and praise which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of
candour, an air of greatness, meaning only to shew off in higher style her own
very superior performance. She was, besides, which was the worst of all, so
cold, so cautious! There was no getting at her real opinion. Wrapt up in a
cloak of politeness, she seemed determined to hazard nothing. She was
disgustingly, was suspiciously reserved.
If any thing could be more, where all was
most, she was more reserved on the subject of Weymouth and the Dixons than any
thing. She seemed bent on giving no real insight into Mr. Dixon's character, or
her own value for his company, or opinion of the suitableness of the match. It
was all general approbation and smoothness; nothing delineated or
distinguished. It did her no service however. Her caution was thrown away. Emma
saw its artifice, and returned to her first surmises. There probably was
something more to conceal than her own preference; Mr. Dixon, perhaps, had been
very near changing one friend for the other, or been fixed only to Miss
Campbell, for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds.
The like reserve prevailed on other topics.
She and Mr. Frank Churchill had been at Weymouth at the same time. It was known
that they were a little acquainted; but not a syllable of real information
could Emma procure as to what he truly was. “Was he handsome?”—“She believed he
was reckoned a very fine young man.” “Was he agreeable?”—“He was generally
thought so.” “Did he appear a sensible young man; a young man of
information?”—“At a watering-place, or in a common London acquaintance, it was
difficult to decide on such points. Manners were all that could be safely
judged of, under a much longer knowledge than they had yet had of Mr.
Churchill. She believed every body found his manners pleasing.” Emma could not
forgive her.
CHAPTER III
Emma could not forgive her;—but as neither
provocation nor resentment were discerned by Mr. Knightley, who had been of the
party, and had seen only proper attention and pleasing behaviour on each side,
he was expressing the next morning, being at Hartfield again on business with
Mr. Woodhouse, his approbation of the whole; not so openly as he might have
done had her father been out of the room, but speaking plain enough to be very
intelligible to Emma. He had been used to think her unjust to Jane, and had now
great pleasure in marking an improvement.
“A very pleasant evening,” he began, as soon
as Mr. Woodhouse had been talked into what was necessary, told that he
understood, and the papers swept away;—“particularly pleasant. You and Miss
Fairfax gave us some very good music. I do not know a more luxurious state,
sir, than sitting at one's ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such
young women; sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation. I am sure
Miss Fairfax must have found the evening pleasant, Emma. You left nothing
undone. I was glad you made her play so much, for having no instrument at her
grandmother's, it must have been a real indulgence.”
“I am happy you approved,” said Emma,
smiling; “but I hope I am not often deficient in what is due to guests at
Hartfield.”
“No, my dear,” said her father instantly; “that
I am sure you are not. There is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are.
If any thing, you are too attentive. The muffin last night—if it had been
handed round once, I think it would have been enough.”
“No,” said Mr. Knightley, nearly at the same
time; “you are not often deficient; not often deficient either in manner or
comprehension. I think you understand me, therefore.”
An arch look expressed—“I understand you well
enough;” but she said only, “Miss Fairfax is reserved.”
“I always told you she was—a little; but you
will soon overcome all that part of her reserve which ought to be overcome, all
that has its foundation in diffidence. What arises from discretion must be
honoured.”
“You think her diffident. I do not see it.”
“My dear Emma,” said he, moving from his
chair into one close by her, “you are not going to tell me, I hope, that you
had not a pleasant evening.”
“Oh! no; I was pleased with my own
perseverance in asking questions; and amused to think how little information I
obtained.”
“I am disappointed,” was his only answer.
“I hope every body had a pleasant evening,”
said Mr. Woodhouse, in his quiet way. “I had. Once, I felt the fire rather too
much; but then I moved back my chair a little, a very little, and it did not
disturb me. Miss Bates was very chatty and good-humoured, as she always is,
though she speaks rather too quick. However, she is very agreeable, and Mrs.
Bates too, in a different way. I like old friends; and Miss Jane Fairfax is a
very pretty sort of young lady, a very pretty and a very well-behaved young lady
indeed. She must have found the evening agreeable, Mr. Knightley, because she
had Emma.”
“True, sir; and Emma, because she had Miss
Fairfax.”
Emma saw his anxiety, and wishing to appease
it, at least for the present, said, and with a sincerity which no one could
question—
“She is a sort of elegant creature that one
cannot keep one's eyes from. I am always watching her to admire; and I do pity
her from my heart.”
Mr. Knightley looked as if he were more
gratified than he cared to express; and before he could make any reply, Mr.
Woodhouse, whose thoughts were on the Bates's, said—
“It is a great pity that their circumstances
should be so confined! a great pity indeed! and I have often wished—but it is
so little one can venture to do—small, trifling presents, of any thing
uncommon—Now we have killed a porker, and Emma thinks of sending them a loin or
a leg; it is very small and delicate—Hartfield pork is not like any other
pork—but still it is pork—and, my dear Emma, unless one could be sure of their making
it into steaks, nicely fried, as ours are fried, without the smallest grease,
and not roast it, for no stomach can bear roast pork—I think we had better send
the leg—do not you think so, my dear?”
“My dear papa, I sent the whole hind-quarter.
I knew you would wish it. There will be the leg to be salted, you know, which
is so very nice, and the loin to be dressed directly in any manner they like.”
“That's right, my dear, very right. I had not
thought of it before, but that is the best way. They must not over-salt the
leg; and then, if it is not over-salted, and if it is very thoroughly boiled,
just as Serle boils ours, and eaten very moderately of, with a boiled turnip,
and a little carrot or parsnip, I do not consider it unwholesome.”
“Emma,” said Mr. Knightley presently, “I have
a piece of news for you. You like news—and I heard an article in my way hither
that I think will interest you.”
“News! Oh! yes, I always like news. What is
it?—why do you smile so?—where did you hear it?—at Randalls?”
He had time only to say,
“No, not at Randalls; I have not been near
Randalls,” when the door was thrown open, and Miss Bates and Miss Fairfax
walked into the room. Full of thanks, and full of news, Miss Bates knew not
which to give quickest. Mr. Knightley soon saw that he had lost his moment, and
that not another syllable of communication could rest with him.
“Oh! my dear sir, how are you this morning?
My dear Miss Woodhouse—I come quite over-powered. Such a beautiful hind-quarter
of pork! You are too bountiful! Have you heard the news? Mr. Elton is going to
be married.”
Emma had not had time even to think of Mr.
Elton, and she was so completely surprized that she could not avoid a little
start, and a little blush, at the sound.
“There is my news:—I thought it would
interest you,” said Mr. Knightley, with a smile which implied a conviction of
some part of what had passed between them.
“But where could you hear it?” cried
Miss Bates. “Where could you possibly hear it, Mr. Knightley? For it is not
five minutes since I received Mrs. Cole's note—no, it cannot be more than
five—or at least ten—for I had got my bonnet and spencer on, just ready to come
out—I was only gone down to speak to Patty again about the pork—Jane was
standing in the passage—were not you, Jane?—for my mother was so afraid that we
had not any salting-pan large enough. So I said I would go down and see, and
Jane said, 'Shall I go down instead? for I think you have a little cold, and
Patty has been washing the kitchen.'—'Oh! my dear,' said I—well, and just then
came the note. A Miss Hawkins—that's all I know. A Miss Hawkins of Bath. But,
Mr. Knightley, how could you possibly have heard it? for the very moment Mr.
Cole told Mrs. Cole of it, she sat down and wrote to me. A Miss Hawkins—”
“I was with Mr. Cole on business an hour and
a half ago. He had just read Elton's letter as I was shewn in, and handed it to
me directly.”
“Well! that is quite—I suppose there never
was a piece of news more generally interesting. My dear sir, you really are too
bountiful. My mother desires her very best compliments and regards, and a
thousand thanks, and says you really quite oppress her.”
“We consider our Hartfield pork,” replied Mr.
Woodhouse—“indeed it certainly is, so very superior to all other pork, that
Emma and I cannot have a greater pleasure than—”
“Oh! my dear sir, as my mother says, our
friends are only too good to us. If ever there were people who, without having
great wealth themselves, had every thing they could wish for, I am sure it is
us. We may well say that 'our lot is cast in a goodly heritage.' Well, Mr.
Knightley, and so you actually saw the letter; well—”
“It was short—merely to announce—but
cheerful, exulting, of course.”— Here was a sly glance at Emma. “He had been so
fortunate as to—I forget the precise words—one has no business to remember
them. The information was, as you state, that he was going to be married to a
Miss Hawkins. By his style, I should imagine it just settled.”
“Mr. Elton going to be married!” said Emma,
as soon as she could speak. “He will have every body's wishes for his
happiness.”
“He is very young to settle,” was Mr.
Woodhouse's observation. “He had better not be in a hurry. He seemed to me very
well off as he was. We were always glad to see him at Hartfield.”
“A new neighbour for us all, Miss Woodhouse!”
said Miss Bates, joyfully; “my mother is so pleased!—she says she cannot bear
to have the poor old Vicarage without a mistress. This is great news, indeed.
Jane, you have never seen Mr. Elton!—no wonder that you have such a curiosity
to see him.”
Jane's curiosity did not appear of that
absorbing nature as wholly to occupy her.
“No—I have never seen Mr. Elton,” she
replied, starting on this appeal; “is he—is he a tall man?”
“Who shall answer that question?” cried Emma.
“My father would say 'yes,' Mr. Knightley 'no;' and Miss Bates and I that he is
just the happy medium. When you have been here a little longer, Miss Fairfax,
you will understand that Mr. Elton is the standard of perfection in Highbury,
both in person and mind.”
“Very true, Miss Woodhouse, so she will. He
is the very best young man—But, my dear Jane, if you remember, I told you
yesterday he was precisely the height of Mr. Perry. Miss Hawkins,—I dare say,
an excellent young woman. His extreme attention to my mother—wanting her to sit
in the vicarage pew, that she might hear the better, for my mother is a little
deaf, you know—it is not much, but she does not hear quite quick. Jane says
that Colonel Campbell is a little deaf. He fancied bathing might be good for
it—the warm bath—but she says it did him no lasting benefit. Colonel Campbell,
you know, is quite our angel. And Mr. Dixon seems a very charming young man,
quite worthy of him. It is such a happiness when good people get together—and
they always do. Now, here will be Mr. Elton and Miss Hawkins; and there are the
Coles, such very good people; and the Perrys—I suppose there never was a
happier or a better couple than Mr. and Mrs. Perry. I say, sir,” turning to Mr.
Woodhouse, “I think there are few places with such society as Highbury. I
always say, we are quite blessed in our neighbours.—My dear sir, if there is
one thing my mother loves better than another, it is pork—a roast loin of
pork—”
“As to who, or what Miss Hawkins is, or how
long he has been acquainted with her,” said Emma, “nothing I suppose can be
known. One feels that it cannot be a very long acquaintance. He has been gone
only four weeks.”
Nobody had any information to give; and,
after a few more wonderings, Emma said,
“You are silent, Miss Fairfax—but I hope you
mean to take an interest in this news. You, who have been hearing and seeing so
much of late on these subjects, who must have been so deep in the business on
Miss Campbell's account—we shall not excuse your being indifferent about Mr.
Elton and Miss Hawkins.”
“When I have seen Mr. Elton,” replied Jane,
“I dare say I shall be interested—but I believe it requires that with
me. And as it is some months since Miss Campbell married, the impression may be
a little worn off.”
“Yes, he has been gone just four weeks, as
you observe, Miss Woodhouse,” said Miss Bates, “four weeks yesterday.—A Miss
Hawkins!—Well, I had always rather fancied it would be some young lady
hereabouts; not that I ever—Mrs. Cole once whispered to me—but I immediately
said, 'No, Mr. Elton is a most worthy young man—but'—In short, I do not think I
am particularly quick at those sort of discoveries. I do not pretend to it.
What is before me, I see. At the same time, nobody could wonder if Mr. Elton
should have aspired—Miss Woodhouse lets me chatter on, so good-humouredly. She
knows I would not offend for the world. How does Miss Smith do? She seems quite
recovered now. Have you heard from Mrs. John Knightley lately? Oh! those dear
little children. Jane, do you know I always fancy Mr. Dixon like Mr. John
Knightley. I mean in person—tall, and with that sort of look—and not very
talkative.”
“Quite wrong, my dear aunt; there is no
likeness at all.”
“Very odd! but one never does form a just
idea of any body beforehand. One takes up a notion, and runs away with it. Mr.
Dixon, you say, is not, strictly speaking, handsome?”
“Handsome! Oh! no—far from it—certainly
plain. I told you he was plain.”
“My dear, you said that Miss Campbell would
not allow him to be plain, and that you yourself—”
“Oh! as for me, my judgment is worth nothing.
Where I have a regard, I always think a person well-looking. But I gave what I
believed the general opinion, when I called him plain.”
“Well, my dear Jane, I believe we must be
running away. The weather does not look well, and grandmama will be uneasy. You
are too obliging, my dear Miss Woodhouse; but we really must take leave. This
has been a most agreeable piece of news indeed. I shall just go round by Mrs.
Cole's; but I shall not stop three minutes: and, Jane, you had better go home
directly—I would not have you out in a shower!—We think she is the better for
Highbury already. Thank you, we do indeed. I shall not attempt calling on Mrs.
Goddard, for I really do not think she cares for any thing but boiled
pork: when we dress the leg it will be another thing. Good morning to you, my
dear sir. Oh! Mr. Knightley is coming too. Well, that is so very!—I am sure if
Jane is tired, you will be so kind as to give her your arm.—Mr. Elton, and Miss
Hawkins!—Good morning to you.”
Emma, alone with her father, had half her
attention wanted by him while he lamented that young people would be in such a
hurry to marry—and to marry strangers too—and the other half she could give to
her own view of the subject. It was to herself an amusing and a very welcome
piece of news, as proving that Mr. Elton could not have suffered long; but she
was sorry for Harriet: Harriet must feel it—and all that she could hope was, by
giving the first information herself, to save her from hearing it abruptly from
others. It was now about the time that she was likely to call. If she were to
meet Miss Bates in her way!—and upon its beginning to rain, Emma was obliged to
expect that the weather would be detaining her at Mrs. Goddard's, and that the
intelligence would undoubtedly rush upon her without preparation.
The shower was heavy, but short; and it had
not been over five minutes, when in came Harriet, with just the heated,
agitated look which hurrying thither with a full heart was likely to give; and
the “Oh! Miss Woodhouse, what do you think has happened!” which instantly burst
forth, had all the evidence of corresponding perturbation. As the blow was
given, Emma felt that she could not now shew greater kindness than in
listening; and Harriet, unchecked, ran eagerly through what she had to tell.
“She had set out from Mrs. Goddard's half an hour ago—she had been afraid it
would rain—she had been afraid it would pour down every moment—but she thought
she might get to Hartfield first—she had hurried on as fast as possible; but
then, as she was passing by the house where a young woman was making up a gown
for her, she thought she would just step in and see how it went on; and though
she did not seem to stay half a moment there, soon after she came out it began
to rain, and she did not know what to do; so she ran on directly, as fast as
she could, and took shelter at Ford's.”—Ford's was the principal
woollen-draper, linen-draper, and haberdasher's shop united; the shop first in
size and fashion in the place.—“And so, there she had set, without an idea of
any thing in the world, full ten minutes, perhaps—when, all of a sudden, who
should come in—to be sure it was so very odd!—but they always dealt at
Ford's—who should come in, but Elizabeth Martin and her brother!—Dear Miss
Woodhouse! only think. I thought I should have fainted. I did not know what to
do. I was sitting near the door—Elizabeth saw me directly; but he did not; he
was busy with the umbrella. I am sure she saw me, but she looked away directly,
and took no notice; and they both went to quite the farther end of the shop;
and I kept sitting near the door!—Oh! dear; I was so miserable! I am sure I
must have been as white as my gown. I could not go away you know, because of
the rain; but I did so wish myself anywhere in the world but there.—Oh! dear,
Miss Woodhouse—well, at last, I fancy, he looked round and saw me; for instead
of going on with her buyings, they began whispering to one another. I am sure
they were talking of me; and I could not help thinking that he was persuading
her to speak to me—(do you think he was, Miss Woodhouse?)—for presently she
came forward—came quite up to me, and asked me how I did, and seemed ready to
shake hands, if I would. She did not do any of it in the same way that she
used; I could see she was altered; but, however, she seemed to try to be
very friendly, and we shook hands, and stood talking some time; but I know no
more what I said—I was in such a tremble!—I remember she said she was sorry we
never met now; which I thought almost too kind! Dear, Miss Woodhouse, I was
absolutely miserable! By that time, it was beginning to hold up, and I was
determined that nothing should stop me from getting away—and then—only think!—I
found he was coming up towards me too—slowly you know, and as if he did not
quite know what to do; and so he came and spoke, and I answered—and I stood for
a minute, feeling dreadfully, you know, one can't tell how; and then I took
courage, and said it did not rain, and I must go; and so off I set; and I had
not got three yards from the door, when he came after me, only to say, if I was
going to Hartfield, he thought I had much better go round by Mr. Cole's
stables, for I should find the near way quite floated by this rain. Oh! dear, I
thought it would have been the death of me! So I said, I was very much obliged
to him: you know I could not do less; and then he went back to Elizabeth, and I
came round by the stables—I believe I did—but I hardly knew where I was, or any
thing about it. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, I would rather done any thing than have it
happen: and yet, you know, there was a sort of satisfaction in seeing him
behave so pleasantly and so kindly. And Elizabeth, too. Oh! Miss Woodhouse, do
talk to me and make me comfortable again.”
Very sincerely did Emma wish to do so; but it
was not immediately in her power. She was obliged to stop and think. She was
not thoroughly comfortable herself. The young man's conduct, and his sister's,
seemed the result of real feeling, and she could not but pity them. As Harriet
described it, there had been an interesting mixture of wounded affection and
genuine delicacy in their behaviour. But she had believed them to be
well-meaning, worthy people before; and what difference did this make in the
evils of the connexion? It was folly to be disturbed by it. Of course, he must
be sorry to lose her—they must be all sorry. Ambition, as well as love, had
probably been mortified. They might all have hoped to rise by Harriet's
acquaintance: and besides, what was the value of Harriet's description?—So
easily pleased—so little discerning;—what signified her praise?
She exerted herself, and did try to make her
comfortable, by considering all that had passed as a mere trifle, and quite
unworthy of being dwelt on,
“It might be distressing, for the moment,”
said she; “but you seem to have behaved extremely well; and it is over—and may
never—can never, as a first meeting, occur again, and therefore you need not
think about it.”
Harriet said, “very true,” and she “would not
think about it;” but still she talked of it—still she could talk of nothing
else; and Emma, at last, in order to put the Martins out of her head, was
obliged to hurry on the news, which she had meant to give with so much tender
caution; hardly knowing herself whether to rejoice or be angry, ashamed or only
amused, at such a state of mind in poor Harriet—such a conclusion of Mr.
Elton's importance with her!
Mr. Elton's rights, however, gradually
revived. Though she did not feel the first intelligence as she might have done
the day before, or an hour before, its interest soon increased; and before
their first conversation was over, she had talked herself into all the
sensations of curiosity, wonder and regret, pain and pleasure, as to this
fortunate Miss Hawkins, which could conduce to place the Martins under proper
subordination in her fancy.
Emma learned to be rather glad that there had
been such a meeting. It had been serviceable in deadening the first shock,
without retaining any influence to alarm. As Harriet now lived, the Martins
could not get at her, without seeking her, where hitherto they had wanted
either the courage or the condescension to seek her; for since her refusal of
the brother, the sisters never had been at Mrs. Goddard's; and a twelvemonth
might pass without their being thrown together again, with any necessity, or
even any power of speech.
To
be continued